Thursday, December 15, 2011

Quite Late, Should Sleep....

As the title implies, it's quite late. Considering I've got an exam tomorrow at 8 AM, and I'll be rollin' out of bed at 6:50 so I have time to stretch, shower, eat, and generally wake up. I can't sleep though. My brain is going crazy right now. I started three songs in the past three hours I've tried to sleep, only in my head and on paper (I don't want to disturb the room mates). I'll be working on them a little more tomorrow when I can make noises and not really care. So I figured I might as well go ahead and post something, as it's been a while since someone posted, and if I ask someone to post something, it'll be a while before it gets done what with winter break coming up and such. So here I am again, talking to possibly nobody over the vast expanse of cyberspace. Hello nobody, nice to meet you, thank you for allowing me to feel important for a few minutes.

I was in this exact same predicament last year on the eve of my last exam before winter break. I don't know what it is keeping me awake. Whatever it is needs to go away, I don't like it one bit. Last year instead of doing this, I went walking around outside in the freezing cold with nothing on but a t-shirt, shorts and sandals, pretending I was crazy and muttering to myself. This group of girls passed me, and one of them was like "What the *insert expletive*!?" I don't know why I thought this would make me sleepy, it certainly did not. I went back to Witherspoon and sat in my friend's room as a bunch of them played Super Smash trying to keep the volume to a dull roar. But when you play Super Smash, there's no dull roar to possibly be had. It's either full out roar, or nothing. Around 3 I finally got tired, went back to my room, slept a few hours, and killed my exam the next morning. Let's cross our fingers, knock on wood and do a bunch of other superstitious things to bring that good fortune back for tomorrow's exam (ESCI 1101). Shouldn't be too hard, but we'll see....

So semester in perspective I suppose? Yeah it was good. It was really busy. I've been way too busy this past year and a half. I'm going to cut back on things next semester and take more time for myself. When you're stretched thin, you can't be effective at anything. Unless you're living off of 5 hour energy (subtle product placement) and sleeping in the library, eating scraps out of the trash cans. My workload is really not that bad, it's just not that good either. So next semester this guy is going to slow things down, and take it easy before he departs for the following year to various locations in and out of the US. Man time really just gets away from you. It honestly feels like last month I was catching up with all my friends, inspecting the new parking deck behind Witherspoon, raising very small, relatively non-existent amounts of Cain at Cookout far too often, saying "oh I got my first test back, blah blah blah I just didn't know what to expect blah". Oh my.... In less than a year I will have spent more time away from Charlotte than I ever have in my life, and astronomically more time outside of the US on my own. It scares the heck out of me to be quite frank with you. I've just started developing all these ties to this school and the area, to people and places and bands and clubs and now I've gotta go. That's it, drop it, and hopefully pick back up where I left off when I come back. I honestly don't think that's going to happen for some of the things right now that I spend the majority of my days working on. But I've always found the old saying true, that when one door closes, another one opens.

Anyhow, I'm going to close this blog up for the night and really, really, really try to get to sleep. I didn't even have any caffeine today! To prospective students; I hope you will consider UNCC and the Levine program seriously. This school is amazing, it has something for everyone, and I'd be at quite a significant disadvantage without the program and our directors. Be honest with yourself for the next year or so, and do things that matter to you, that are fun for you, but are still contributing to something in a positive way. Don't build up a good looking, heartless resume, come into the program and lose your steam in the first semester. Be prepared to work hard for this program even after you've gotten it. The term "free ride" could not be more inaccurate. And know that for every ounce of effort you put in, you'll get out of it 10 times that, likely more. And have a fantastic holiday break.

Wish me luck tomorrow!
I don't need your luck... I was born lucky.

Happy Holidays my beloved nobody on cyberspace.

And yes, still no pictures. WHATEVER.